I am too late :-(

Blog, I don't have anybody left now to unshell myself and share my feelings. The only person I had also decide to move out of my boring life :(
Though I had this ultimate fear in my mind and ream, today this has come true and believe me there is no one with whom I can share this.
16th August 2014, at 4 AM; this foolsih guy landed on a FB page which uncovered the curtain to show me my cruel destiny that Bhutu is no longer there for me. After a long wait for me, she found someone to walk along . No one to blame, not even god I can blame. I just created this by myself and was waiting for just when it get unfurled.
One of the most saddening day of my life. The person whom I loved the most, cared the most, thought of the most, dreamt the most will no longer smile with me, no longer care fro me. It's all gone now.
Bhutu, I don't know whether you belived me or not, you are the one for me and my life actually revolved around you. I know, it was the time and circumstances that you could not have avoided but...
I am not a good writer like you, so can't express what I am feeling right at this moment.
Not sure if ever I would meet you in life and explain these to you sometime, or perhaps I should not do this at all..I don't know. What I'll do I don't know. But I would just like you to read my blog sometime before I die. I'll think that you have forgiven me. Those Nanital days, Tapovan days, Katwarai Sarai days, RPM, and all other things will be alive in my memories till I die. Thanks for everything. I know i wont't find anyone in my life like you.
I'll MISS you BHUTUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.....
I can't write more...
Plz take care of yourself...


-Garfi

Hi After a long time again. Looking at my old friendly blog. Few updates I wanted to make and post here.
a - Now my home building is in full fledged mode at my hometown
b - Awaiting my Promotion for 7A :-)
c - Trying to send my Passport for PR Visa stamping
d - Looking for a job for Sis
e - WFH most of these days.
f  - Planning for the future
g- Looking to set up a business as well.

Will keep u posted on the progress.

Miss you

Hey Bhutu, miss you so much!!! You are coming to my dreams every night.

Tumi sochakoiye Unique....

Hopefully everything will be good very soon.

2011

Another new year....one more year passing by. Quiet, hectic, eventful, tears and smiles, new learning curves, new friends coming in quite a mix-bag. On NYE, went to a disc; loud music ... champagne, nice crowd, nice location...still something was missing. Human mind never satisfied!!! Everything was with me once I used to dream about; but still I was missing something....it was not like the NYE I celebrated in Delhi RPM in 2007. But one thing I have learnt is that happiness and sadness whatever it is ....it is ur own creation only. So try to be happy since its the only life you have and try to solve the problem rather than thinking about it. ;) So smart....Anyways happiness and sorrow is part of life. So dnt be worried and chill out....

So a very warm welcome 2011; I'll try to enjoy this mystic year once it start to unfold.

My Name Is Das

Another Valentine's day round the corner. Watching My Name is Khan. Nothing spl..some swt memories only with me.
Bhutu You know what...for the last few weeks I am having the fear of losing you. I dnt wanna lose u bhutu. I dnt knw u love me or not..but I cant stop loving and thinking of u damn it. why in every moment u slip by my thoughts... I dnt wanna think u..I dnt wanna think u.
I am just punishing myself, my family , and you.

I wanna come out of this...

Thanks blog..atleast you are here in my bad times whom I can share my tough time thoughts.

New Year's eve 2010 at Times Square

31 st Dec 2009 11 PM...waiting for the new year. I went to the Times Square for the ball drop show with all the excitement and luckily I could make an entry to the 48th street and 7th avenue around 4 PM. All the streets are blocked by NYPD around 5 PM and Times Square is fully crowded. I was happy for a moment but I don't know why, I was sad. All the thoughts came into my mind...I am alone, thinking of the 2008 New Years party with piggy at RPM that party was much moe better than this. Why I am not happy though I am at the most happening party in the world at Times Square, a million people's dream. Finally I realized that I am not enjoying the party and came back to my hotel room with a heavy heart. Anie I can't forget you..please forgive me..I need you badly.Hope this blog will pass this message to you sometime. Hoping that the New Year will solve all th problem and we'll be able to enjoy 2011 new year's eve happily.

Vegas is not the medicine

Vegas...Sincity, Bachelor, alone, Credit Cards loaded....what else you need!!! Still I am missing something..I am busy exploring the new places but I don't want to explore this emptiness in my heart...Why I am feeling so lonely..why not feeling happy..why I am not being able to stop my thinkings again and again...why piggy always comes to comparison...why I am feeling this nice dream vacation as a never ending roller coaster.

Holy hell...please give me some peace of mind..which I have lost a long back.